Friday, December 31, 2010

~In Search Of Love~

In search of love, love I have found

Along with stinging grief

And once again, I must set forth,

To try to find relief

But with this pain, a lesson learned

One’s heart’s a precious jewel

A wary mind and cautious soul

To not be made a fool....

"In Search Of Love" " Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2007

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Our Purpose

The plants have dried and gone... Life here is not for the faint... Stealing, hurting and so on. We have become virtue-less creatures who feed on the weak and nobody shall stop us or we will rip out their tongue before they can speak... The end is near and I sincerely fear there will be punishment for our behavior... Are we not but skin, flesh, bones fueled with soul!? Is there something more? Are we all alone on this planet and in this time can we turn it all around and be forgiven our crimes!? Turn over a new leaf and surrender our belief that we are owed something...

"Our Purpose" " Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2010


Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Brotherhood


((إِنَّمَا الْمُؤْمِنُونَ إِخْوَةٌ فَأَصْلِحُوا بَيْنَ أَخَوَيْكُمْ وَاتَّقُوا اللَّهَ لَعَلَّكُمْ تُرْحَمُونَ) )
سورة الحجرات الآية 10

“The Mu’minoon are but a single Brotherhood.”
The Holy Quran (49:10)

Before I started the new module in my Executive MBA course I was going to the farthest of the three close mosques to our house. I wanted to be a stranger so I can worship freely without worrying others might disturb me. This mosque was filled with poor Pakistanis. I wanted to break my pride into pieces and to see how I can manage praying alongside the poor in an old mosque. I always believed that to become truly great I have to stand with people, not above them. I wanted to be with those Pakistani people who just came to pray.

Days passed, some of those Pakistani were smiling to the new stranger in the mosque, while some others were sitting quietly watching me pray or read Quran and while others were sitting next to me talking, asking questions like what's my name and where I am living. Sometimes people would prepare a space for me, handing me Quran. I thought the reason for this great treatment was the fact that I was the only Emirati in the mosque. Sometimes I found myself surrounded by men talking about Islam in general, I thought they were surrounding me maybe because they wanted money. However my assumptions were wrong! They were doing the same for each other’s as well. When you see them you can’t tell the difference, you see them as one family, as real brothers. I said to myself if all Muslims live in peace just like them; living in peace in our wicked world is no dream.

The college started, I couldn’t go to that mosque and I was praying Al-Fajer prayer in the closest mosque to my house for I was lazy to walk to a far mosque. While the others prayers, I was praying in the Work’s mosque or the college’s. After the module ended, I decided to go to that mosque again. It’s been almost month, the moment I entered the mosque the cleaner of the mosque was surprised and he didn’t even know Arabic but he was able to say: “Entah Waain?” with a big happy smile. I never expected that the cleaner would talk to me; in fact he told me his father was praying for me! He told his father about me, about the stranger who prayed in the mosque.  

After I entered, I was welcomed by the Pakistani, each one hugging me asking me where I’ve been. Someone thought that I left the area I am living in so he felt sad that he would not see me again. Some said they felt a dear brother was missing; some others were searching for me asking each other where I disappeared. One was holding my hand so I sit, a second prepared a space for me, a third brought Quran holder and a fifth gave me Quran. Each one of them has something to give not to take, a beautiful word, great serving, unconditional love. The "Mo'athen" the one who called for prayer told me to call for prayer; he wanted to hear my voice he claimed he missed it and so I called for prayer. Then the Imam entered and he was amazed to see me as well. They were so happy to the extent the Imam forwarded me so I can pray as the Imam. When I was praying I realized my cheeks were wet because of my tears… I always thought I was a lone wolf, a stranger to them, but after this incident I realized I am not alone, maybe a Lone Emirati, but never a Lone Muslim.
  
I was moved by the warm greetings of those Pakistani people because I saw in them forming the True-Muslim-Brotherhood bond. This brotherhood of Muslims is very deep and that guarantees the well being of the whole nation.

They were people you can count on anytime and when you need support they will lend a shoulder to cry on or support you in a time of need.  I saw in them true brotherhood, which is to love for your brother as much as you love for yourself, and hate for your brother what you hate for yourself. At first I was surprised how is the bond so great with them but after some encounters, I realized those men realized they born to encounter suffering and sorrow, joy and happiness, and therefore, bound to sympathize with each other. They realized they are crossing the sea on one big boat, the moment they find a hole they try to close it. They grasped the idea that each Muslim is a mirror for his brother.


((الْمُؤْمِنُونَ وَالْمُؤْمِنَاتُ بَعْضُهُمْ أَوْلِيَاءُ بَعْضٍ يَأْمُرُونَ بِالْمَعْرُوفِ وَيَنْهَوْنَ عَنِ الْمُنكَرِ وَيُقِيمُونَ الصَّلاةَ وَيُؤْتُونَ الزَّكَاةَ وَيُطِيعُونَ اللَّهَ وَرَسُولَهُ أُوْلَئِكَ سَيَرْحَمُهُمُ اللَّهُ إِنَّ اللَّهَ عَزِيزٌ حَكِيمٌ((
سورة التوبة الآية 71

“The Believers, men and women, are protectors one of another: they enjoin the ma`roof (all of Islam), and forbid the munkar (all that is evil; kufr): they observe regular prayers, pay Zakat, and obey Allah and His Messenger. On them will Allah pour His mercy: for Allah is Exalted in power, Wise.”
The Holy Quran (9:71)


I went to the same mosque  hour earlier to AlFajr Athan, the lights were switched off and it was totally dark. I was scared but decided to pray in this darkness alone because in such quiet place filled with darkness I feel am closer to god. While I was praying I was hearing sounds, these sounds at first scared me so I finished my prayer quickly to switch the lights on. When I switched the lights on, I was amazed that many and I mean MANY Pakistani people praying! I then realized the sound I was hearing was the sounds of their cries. When I saw this I realized from where they get power to love for each others as for themselves, it has nothing to do with race or any other type of invalid reason to unite but is rather a bond based on faith.

No bond is greater than the brotherhood of Islam, it originates from faith and love with chain of compassion a mystical bond of brotherhood is formed that makes all Muslim brothers. This bond is strong because it’s based on the Islamic belief, and faith in what Prophet Mohammed (Peace be Upon Him) Said:

"The Believers, in their mutual love, mercy and compassion, are like one body: if one organ complained, the rest of the body develops a fever."

We always talk about Islamic Brotherhood but we barely practice it, but with those men I couldn’t find a better example for brotherhood in our iniquitous age.  I wonder if we Emaratis, in our mosque, saw a lone Pakistani stranger, are we going to treat him like those Pakistani treated me!? Prophet Mohammed (Peace Be Upon Him) Said:

"None of you will have faith till he wishes for his (Muslim) brother what he likes for himself."
(Sahih Al-Bukhari Volume 1, Book 2, Number 12)



Friday, December 24, 2010

Why Only Muslims?

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم



السلام عليكـم ورحمـة الله وبـركـاته






































Thursday, December 23, 2010

Revealing The Less Cited Benefits Of Reading


In the earlier years, people have greatly relied on reading books to be able to gain and hone their knowledge and thinking abilities, at the same time, people then not only use books for learning but also served as a communication tool and a form of entertainment. Everyone was eager to have even a single book, everyone dreamed to learn how to read. In its early years, books were only an item for the rich and a dream for the poor; they are the fountain of knowledge. However, the emergence of technological breakthroughs from the radio, television and afterwards, computers and the internet have slowly side winded peoples attitude towards reading and interest on books. This case is very much evident especially on the younger generation, on today’s new age students.

Teachers would note that students are rarely interested on reading books. Parents could no longer compel their child to read. We may no longer experience such times wherein during the winter or colder seasons, we would just sit in the couch and read some interesting and imaginative books. Today, most people would probably sit on the couch and play on a computer game or stick their eyes unto the television. Notwithstanding this situation, there is still hope in inculcating the vast advantages, benefits and importance of reading and mainly, the declining interest on books. I have cited the major ones on the following discussions.

Essentially, reading promotes creativity and a person’s imagination. Compared to the favorite past time of watching a movie or television, books would require the reader to create in his mind characters that would fit into the description of what he/she reads and on how a particular setting or act is portrayed. Improving one’s abilities in terms of reading is as good as to increasing the ability to comprehend most vague concepts and ideas. Critical thinking and effective decision making is also founded on the basis of good reading.

One of the most important benefits of reading is what we need in our daily life, which is to effectively communicate. Before we could talk simultaneously, before we could even use today’s technology, we must first be able to read. Reading is communicating. Reading might also inspire the young to know more about many things or to create interest in many areas. An example would be a boy who happens to read the biography of a great scientist which then inspires him to pursue such field in his high school or college years. 

We massively increase our vocabulary by reading, and aside from our parents, we learn and adopt positive values and habits through reading. In earlier years of reading we can be familiar of what values are wrong and what are right or the acceptable ones. There are even studies proving that reading in early childhood years is an effective way of avoiding drugs and illegal activities for the youth. Teachers’ problem on students’ short learning and attention span can be remedied by encouraging the young ones to read. Reading promotes concentration. Spelling and writing can be greatly determined by reading. Also, reading can prepare the young ones when they are about to enter the "Real World" in their adult years. Finally, reading of books within the family creates a close bond with its every member.

Thus, the importance of reading and books are said to be boundless, even with the existence or birth of the newest of technological improvements.


Wednesday, December 22, 2010

~Warriors~

We are the dark warriors.  

Dark, empty and idiotic.... 

For we have no soul to spare...

we gave them away without any care...  

Our insides are murky like a dirty pond... 

but one day the sky was bright 

We met our savior and formed a bond...

Now we are kind, helpful and charming...

We spread good deeds and are very disarming...

We shall sacrifice our lives to help others...

For our God, our sisters and brothers... 


"Warriors" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2005

Monday, December 20, 2010

~Prophets~

I know of people, who lived for our cause…
Their lives they stopped and put on pause…

They spent their time, trying to do good…
Not out of greed, just because they could…

Who did these Prophets dedicate their lives to?
Humanity, my friend… Yes, me and you…

They gave up their freedom; they gave up their names…
To work their time away, not playing any games…

But now we live better because of these men…
Let’s hope no one has to belittle them again…

So, that's how it is, let it be said…
They made our lives better, and now they are dead…

"Prophets" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2010

Saturday, December 18, 2010

~Wandering Soul~

Awakened by a dreadful thunder
None like I have heard before
Dazed confusion fills my head
I run but don't know what's in store

Screams and howls that don't subside
I find at every turn I make
I seek a shelter where to hide
But find no shelter I can take

Enraged and scared I must move on
And try to find escape from here
A silence falls so suddenly
Which fills my spine with chilling fear

I see myself from up above
A lifeless body on the ground
My cherished life been stripped from me
My soul now wanders all around...

"Wandering Soul" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2010

Friday, December 17, 2010

~Thank You~

I "Thank You" from my heart,

For each lovely support for me,

I felt that I was worth it you see.

For I made you learn through fun.

With all I have said and done.

You've changed the grade around,

Turning it up when I was going down.

Because of great students like you 

Who surprise me with things they do 

My class is a better place for pleasure

I will keep them in memory as a treasure

I praise you richly And Thank you so muchly…

"Thank You" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2010

Thursday, December 16, 2010

~Pain~

In all my life, I have never felt,

A pain as great as this

The throbbing dwells, within my heart,

I cannot force release

I feel I am drowning, while awake,

I fight but cannot breathe

I know with time, this pain will pass,

But not when that will be...

"Pain" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2004



Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Tenth Of Muharram Fasting

 

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته


عَنْ عَبْدَ اللَّهِ بْنَ عَبَّاسٍ، رَضِيَ اللَّهُ عَنْهُمَا، قَالَ: حِينَ صَامَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صلى الله عليه وسلم يَوْمَ عَاشُورَاءَ وَأَمَرَ بِصِيَامِهِ، قَالُوا: يَا رَسُولَ اللَّهِ! إِنَّهُ يَوْمٌ تُعَظِّمُهُ الْيَهُودُ وَالنَّصَارَى. فَقَالَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صلى الله عليه وسلم : فَإِذَا كَانَ الْعَامُ الْمُقْبِلُ، إِنْ شَاءَ اللَّهُ، صُمْنَا الْيَوْمَ التَّاسِعَ. قَالَ: فَلَمْ يَأْتِ الْعَامُ الْمُقْبِلُ، حَتَّى تُوُفِّيَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صلى الله عليه وسلم . ( صحيح مسلم، 1134(133) ).

قال الشافعي وأصحابه وأحمد وإسحاق وآخرون: يستحب صوم التاسع والعاشر جميعا; لأن النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم صام العاشر, ونوى صيام التاسع ... قال بعض العلماء: ولعل السبب في صوم التاسع مع العاشر ألا يتشبه باليهود في إفراد العاشر. وفي الحديث إشارة إلى هذا. ( شرح صحيح مسلم: (4/267-268) ).


Muslims fast on this day of Ashura based on narrations attributed to Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him). The fasting is to commemorate the day when Moses and his followers were saved from Pharaoh by Allah by creating a path in the Red Sea. The Jews used to fast on the 10th day. So Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) recommended to be different from the Jews and recommended fasting two days instead of one.9th and 10th

A companion of Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him), Ibn Abas reports Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) went to Medina and found the Jews fasting on the tenth of Muharram. Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) inquired of them, "What is the significance of this day on which you fast?" They replied, "This is a good day, the day on which God rescued the children of Israel from their enemy. So, Moses fasted this day." Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) said, "We have more claim over Moses than you." Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) then fasted on that day and ordered Muslims too…


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

A Dream

Few days back I had many dreams, at a short time. Dreaming, waking up and again dreaming for maybe 2 hours. I wouldn’t be lying if I said I saw around ten dreams and surprisingly enough, the dreams were actually long ones.

That night I kept asking myself, what’s wrong, is it “Time” moving slowly or is it that really dreams only take few minutes if not seconds! Believe it or not, days after I saw dreams and I calculated the time, most of my dreams were less than 3 minutes. When I was dreaming I can remember the details, the events, what I did in the dream and in that dream it was no way all this happened in few seconds, in fact if I just describe one dream I saw, just the description itself will be more than 5 minutes but it only lasted few seconds!

This fact reminded me that life itself is like a dream; we are eating, drinking, living and dying. It seems to us we are having a very long life, 60 years. We are living in a dream, believing it will be a long lasting dream, ignoring the fact that we might wake up (Die) anytime realizing that our life only lasted few seconds. Allah said in the Quran:

((قَالَ كَمْ لَبِثْتُمْ فِي الأرْضِ عَدَدَ سِنِينَ * قَالُواْ لَبِثْنَا يَوْماً أَوْ بَعْضَ يَوْمٍ فَاسْأَلِ الْعَآدّينَ * قَالَ إِن لّبِثْتُمْ إِلاّ قَلِيلاً لّوْ أَنّكُمْ كُنتُمْ تَعْلَمُونَ*))
سورة المؤمنون من الآية 112 إلى الآية 114

He will say: "What number of years did ye stay on earth?" They will say: "We stayed a day or part of a day: but ask those who keep account."  He will say: "Ye stayed not but a little - if ye had only known!
Holy Quran (23: 112-114)

In dreams we might be happy, having health, wealth, power and control. Enjoying the fantasy, we maybe are the heroes in the dream. The problem is once we wake up, all these disappear and we realize that we are the same miserable people. What makes you great is that you are awake while you are dreaming and you can take things from your dream where you can benefit in your real life; this is a true hero in my eyes not a dream-created-hero. Same thing in our lives, we are not great if we are great in this world only but we are great if we took what we need for the hereafter and considered great on that time.

If someone told you, I will have you to live in the desert, and he gives you three things you can choose, money, car or water. Since we have only one choice we will decide to take the most valuable out of all so we can live and that’s water. Similarly we should take from this world the most valuable thing so we can live happily in the hereafter.

This life is very short and we might wake up anytime, we were created for a reason, our role is defined properly, we shouldn’t act on other roles, or ignore the fact that we have a role. A Very great role…

((أَفَحَسِبْتُمْ أَنَّمَا خَلَقْنَاكُمْ عَبَثاً وَأَنَّكُمْ إِلَيْنَا لا تُرْجَعُونَ))
سورة المؤمنون الآية 115

"Did ye then think that We had created you in jest, and that ye would not be brought back to Us (for account)?"
Holy Quran (23: 115)


Monday, December 13, 2010

~Hope~

Searched all across the world for comfort
Yearning warmth in an embrace
Day in day out my hope was tested
Though I never lost my faith

Like a piercing ray of sunlight shining
Through a black of clouds above
Darkness that once filled my life
Is now burning with your love

My past been filled with ghosts of shadows
That slowly drained my life from me
My soul came back to life when I saw you
Learned a love that's pure and free

Enlightened now I have found the one
I have yearned forever more
Learned to embrace each single drop
Like I have not embraced before



Sunday, December 12, 2010

ولسوف يعطيك ربك فترضى


بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

الحمدلله وحده و الصلاة و السلام على من لا نبي بعده

السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته

للهموم وجوه كثيرة أسوأها الوقوف عند حافة اليأس و فقدان الأمل. في الآونة الأخيرة زار قلبي ضيف ثقيل لا يكاد يبرح مقامه فقد ابتليت بأمر أرهقني فالغم لازمني و الحزن صاحبني و الهم أحرق مقلتي و الدمع أغرقني... الفرح إن حضر يوما غاب بقية أيامي, القلب بحرارة يشتكي و ينادي الذي أهمني و لكن لا حياة لمن ينادي فبقي الألم يواسيني و الظلام يحضنني... نظرت للسماء شاكيا همي ألتمس رؤية الحمام لكني وجدتها مليئة بالغمام كأنها محملة بالغموم و كافة أنواع الهموم... و نظرت للأرض باكيا قلبي وجدت الحب فيها سرابا و القلوب مملوءة حقدا و عذابا...

فقدت ما أريد و أقام في قلبي كل هم كئيب و فقدت الكنز الثمين و كدت أفقد اليقين إلا أني رفضت الإنكسار و وجهت وجهي للعزيز الغفار له الحمد و الثناء مقتديا بالأنبياء... فتحت المصحف فسبحان الله وقع بصري على الآية: "وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى" هاج قلبي و ضج و أحسست بأن الخطاب موجه لي:

"يا أيها المهموم الكسير يا أيها المغموم الحسير... يا أسير الحزن أبشر ثم أبشر ثم أبشر فما ودعك ربك...  إذا غطى ظلمة الحزن بجلبابه نهارك و أطبق الغم بجناحيه عالمك فلسوف نعطيك و نرضيك...

إن عصفت بك عواصف الهم و زلزل قلبك الغم و أغرقتك أمواج الحزن و اجتمعت عليك المصائب و نوائب الدهر و كثرت عليك المصاعب فاهتف باسم رب المشارق و المغارب و ستزول كل تلك المتاعب... إن ضاق صدرك بالهموم و الغموم فاهتف يا حي يا قيوم عسى أن ترضى بالمقسوم...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

يا عبدالعزيز ربك أعلم بك منك و أعلم بمصابك و بلواك و يعلم متقلبك و مثواك و مأواك و يسمع دعائك و نجواك ... إذا ألم البلوى قصم ظهرك و أوهن جسمك فسيكشف غمك و ينقض ظهرك... إن داهمك أمر عظيم سيكفيك ربك العظيم...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن باعدك الأصحاب فرب الأرباب أدناك و اختارك من خلقه و ابتلاك... إن لم ينفعك الأقارب و الأنساب و تقطعت بك الأسباب فما ودعك ربك و ما قلاك... إن فقدت عزيز و إن فارقك حبيب فنحن منك قريب و أقرب من حبل الوريد...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إذا الهم طغى و بغى و كل من صاحب رجوته اتبع هواه فهوى و غوى و ودعك و قلى  و لم تعرف كيف تستقيم على طريقتك الأولى و الفرح اختفى و تولى فاذكر شديد القوى محيى الموتى الذي أنشأك النشأة الأولى فهو قادر على أن يعيدك سيرتك الأولى إن وجدك عبدا إذا ذكر ربه  صلى و نهى النفس عن الهوى و كان على الهدى...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن ابتليت بمصيبة تحل النقم و ذنوب تبدل النعم و حرمان ورث الندم و إن زللت للحصول على مرادك و ذكرتنا فنحن نغفر الزلة ونضع عنك وزرك و إن أذّلك مريدك فنحن نجبر تلك الذلة و ننقض ظهرك و نشرح صدرك و نرفع لك ذكرك... إن همت نفسك بالمعصية و ابتليت بارتكاب السيئة فأكرمناك بفعل الحسنة و محونا عنك الخطيئة...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن كنت في أمرك في حيرة عمياء و أذن الآخرين عن سماعك صماء و أصابتك الضراء فاعلم أن ربك يسمع و يرى و لسوف يعطيك ربك فترضى وليذيقنك نعماء بعد ضراء... إن لم يفهمك إلا القلة فسنجعلهم لك نعم الخلة و لسوف نعطيك و نرضيك ألم نجنبك فعل الرذيلة و أكرمناك بالأخلاق الكريمة الفضيلة!؟

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن أحاطك الشيطان و لم تجد من يعطيك الحنان فتذكر الرحمن الذي وسعت رحمته كل شيء المنان خالق الأكوان الذي أغرقك بالنعم على مر الأزمان فاعتصم بالقرآن فهو الركن إن خانتك أركان و لسوف يعطيك ربك ما لم يكن في الحسبان و كل منه إحسان...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إذا ابتغيت أمرا و لم تبلغه و منعك الآخرون فما كان عطاء ربك محظورا بل ممنوح يغدو و يروح... إن طلبت ذوي الشأن و ردوك فتذكر ربك الذي كل يوم هو في شأن يعز و يزل يضيق و يوسع يبتلي فلان بالمحنة و يدفع عن علان النقمة و ذلك منه منّة. يقي الإنسان شر نفسه و سلمه من شرور خلقه يسهل الشديد و منجز الوعيد...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن كان حب الورى بحب ليلى و سلمى و ندى و منى ذاك الحب الداني لنرزقنك قلبا يسري شوقا للقاء ربك الأعلى و لنكرمنك بالحب الراقي كمثل النبي موسى حين قال: "وعجلت إليك رب لترضى"

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن كنت في زمرة المحزونين ذوي القلوب المنكسرة الخاشعة الصادقة فالله يغيث المنكوبين و ينصر المستضعفين و الصادقين و يجيب دعوة المضطرين رب إذا سئل لا يرد سائله و إذا رجي لا يخيب رجاءه أهل التقوى و أهل المغفرة...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن أظلمت أمامك الدروب و اشتدت الخطوب و الكروب فاذكر علام الغيوب بالخضوع و الخشوع ليشع قلبك نورا و يمتلئ صدرك سرورا و حبورا فمنك الدعاء و منه الإجابة فهو ربك الأعلى و لسوف يعطيك فترضى...  إن انقطعت الآمال و أكثرت السؤال و شكوت لربك الحال ليبدلنك الحال...


وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى
يا عبدالعزيز سبح اسم ربك الأعلى و لسوف يعطيك ربك فترضى... إن ضاق صدرك وسعناه و إن مرضت شفيناك و إن ابتليت عافيناك... إن أخطأت فذاك طبع الإنسان و الكامل الله الرحمن...

حينها اغتنمت الثلث الأخير في غياهب السحر تحت ظلال الصمت حين ينزل رب العزة إلى السماء الدنيا نزولا يليق بجلاله لزمت الإستغفار و دعوت العزيز الجبار بسهام الليل مستخدما بريد الإنكسار بعثت شكوتي إلى محكمة العدل في السماء ورفعت يدي و بسطت إليه أكف الضراعة أشكو همي و بثي و حزني إلى قاضي السماء من قاضي الأرض الذي عاملني بجفاء و أنا غارق بدموعي بكل جهد و عناء... قلت: "اللهم إني أسألك بأن لك الحمد لا إله إلا أنت وحدك لا شريك لك المنان يا بديع السماوات و الأرض يا ذا الجلال و الإكرام يا حي يا قيوم يا رب أدعوك دعاء الغريق في بحر همومه الذي لا يجد كشف ما هو فيه إلا أنت فيا رب لا تترك عبدك هالكا... اللهم يا الله برحمتك أستغيث و من غيرك أستغيث اللهم أغلقت الأبواب إلا بابك و خاب الرجاء إلا في جنابك و إنقطعت الآمال إلا فيك و خشعت الأصوات إلا صوتك, اللهم يا مقلب القلوب اللهم يا علام الغيوب اللهم إليك أشكو ضعف قوتي، وقلة حيلتي، وهواني على الناس. يا أرحم الراحمين إلى من تكلني؟ إلى عدو يتجهمني أم إلى قريب ملكته أمري؟ إن لم تكن ساخطا علي فلا أبالي، غير أن عافيتك أوسع لي. أعوذ بنور وجهك الكريم الذي أضاءت له السموات والأرض، وأشرقت له الظلمات، وصلح عليه أمر الدنيا والآخرة، أن تحل علي غضبك، أو تنزل علي سخطك، ولك العتبى حتى ترضى، ولا حول ولا قوة إلا بك"...  فلم أزل أناجي ربي حتى سمعت بخاطري (و لسوف يعطيك ربك فترضى) فتبسمت رغم معاناتي و علمت أن ربي سيحقق العدل لي و ينهي ماساتي  و لسوف يعطيني فيرضيني إن شاء... سكن دمي و جف عرقي... رق عظمي و ضعف... و هدأ قلبي و صمت ...

Saturday, December 11, 2010

~Decision~

So much power
So much might
Do what’s bad
Or do what’s right

Follow your heart
Or follow your mind
Be ruthless, be mean
Or try to be kind

Feed the hungry, the poor
Fill your coffers with gold
Now come, choose which door
Make your choice, just be bold

The path, is it straight
Or does it take you awry?
Do you give in to hate
Do you cheat, steal and lie?

Or follow the righteous
The charity waits
Yell and just fight us
Come, go through the gates

Come to the side
That is evil and dark
Be hurtful and snide
Just leave your mark

No, come to the light
Give your heart and your hand
No anger, no fight
Can you understand?

The wrong thing so easy,
The right is so hard
But it makes you queasy
To choose the wrong card

Play the hand that you’re dealt
But play it well, son
You know how it felt
How the choice was won

Make it now, go the way
Of the martyr and God
Choose saving the day
Though devilry prods

And you choose the good
As you walk through the door
You lifted the hood
And you gave some more

The power in you
The good wins the day
You’ve done the right thing
And you’ve gone the right way
 
"Decision" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2010

Friday, December 10, 2010

~Walking Away~

The more I needed the less you gave

I guess you thought that it worked that way

You never would listen

And now that I am leaving

You are not believing a word I say

If you think I won't go, watch me

Oh, watch me prove you wrong today

You don't even know you lost me

You think I will always stay

Ohh, just watch me walk away




Thursday, December 9, 2010

~I~

I have many experiences and have much on my plate

I have stayed strong and stay here in wait

When I am wronged no matter the wrong I negate

A grudge is not something to add to my weight

I would rather forgive now then stand there and wait

Spending times with my friend is my best real estate

I would protect them no matter what that is something I can restate

Smiling at any given state, kindness to strangers is another trait

I find that kindness should be spread not replaced with hate

Lowering the tears in the world and stopping its growth rate


  "I" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2009


Wednesday, December 8, 2010

~Stepping Forward~

The future is something that we must take hold of...

We have to grab onto our fates it is something we have one of...

It isn't something we should never get sick of...

Fear is something we should try and get rid of...

Sometimes inhibitions are something we should let go of...

Your strengths and your loves are something you should be proud of...

They should be something you make good use of...

While bad habits are something we need to rid of...


 "Stepping Forward" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2008


Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Sleep

Death and Sleeping are brothers if not then at least cousins. If Sleeping is lunar, Death is a full moon. Death is a perfect sleep. In fact, when you see a dead man or a sleeping one, you can hardly notice the difference if the sleeper’s chest wasn’t rising and falling, I couldn’t find anything similar to Death like Sleeping. Sleeping is Nature’s call reminding of death. As much as we can’t resist but to sleep; the same goes with death as we can’t resist but to die one day.

In the past two days, I slept without feeling the surrounding or myself, a state I would call a “Perfect Unconscious”. People tried their best to wake me but they failed, I didn’t even notice the simplest thing. That deep sleep might be a wish for many people but to me it was frightening. When I woke up, I immediately asked myself, what if I opened my eyes and it’s not the world I know, what if I opened my eyes instead of seeing humans I see Angels! What if the next time I wake up I find myself in the middle of people standing waiting for judgment? I realized that what happened to me in these past two days is what will happen to me when I die.

The reasons these questions popped up in my mind are because of the sleep I slept was not very different from my perception of death. I couldn’t feel anything, I couldn’t hear, see, smell, touch what I wanted and in fact I didn’t have the power to wake up. One of the most depression states we may go through is when we want something badly but we don’t have the power to do it, no one is supporting you and you don’t even have the ability to ask for help. It’s not in our hands to wake up when we are sleeping its Allah’s work. Allah Said in the Quran:

"وَهُوَ الَّذِي يَتَوَفَّاكُمْ بِاللَّيْلِ وَيَعْلَمُ مَا جَرَحْتُمْ بِالنَّهَارِ ثُمَّ يَبْعَثُكُمْ فِيهِ لِيُقْضَى أَجَلٌ مُسَمًّى ثُمَّ إِلَيْهِ مَرْجِعُكُمْ ثُمَّ يُنَبِّئُكُمْ بِمَا كُنْتُمْ تَعْمَلُونَ"
سورة الأنعام الآية 60

It is He who doth take your souls by night, and hath knowledge of all that ye have done by day: by day doth He raise you up again; that a term appointed be fulfilled; In the end unto Him will be your return; then will He show you the truth of all that ye did.
Holy Quran (6:60)

I must say that just waking up after sleep and being alive is one of God’s greatest gifts to us Humans. We are actually going in the dying process everyday and then re-birthing, if we just realized the countless fruits of this process, we will realize how merciful Allah is for raising us from dead every day with the so many sins we commit daily.

Don’t we feel happy and grateful when a baby is born, an egg crack then a bird comes out, we feel happily amazed just seeing the process, why we are not happy seeing this process on daily basis. Not to forget the difference is when you wake up, you have all your memory, all your thoughts and powers without the need to learn again, that is a reason that we should be even more happy grateful.

We can consider sleeping is death of past problems and events, our past deeds both good and bad. When we wake up, it is a new birth, a new life, a new chance. If we did bad deeds it’s time to repent and take pledge that we will never repeat them. It’s time to accept what happened, admit our mistakes and find the mistakes that leaded us in those bad deeds so we avoid them. If we did a good deed we shouldn’t stop, our balance is zero, this is a new life, past good deeds is gone, so we should raise our balance in every day, we should find our strength and spend it in good deeds.

The good sleeping is a sleeping without nightmares, when we are sleeping, we can’t select to see dreams or nightmares no matter how much we do in our life, and we can never know what we are going to see. However, once we are dead even though we maybe can’t be sure about the details but Prophet Mohammed peace be upon him told us about certain things for sure we are going to see. Based on our deeds in this life we can expect what we are going to see. No wise man would love to see and experience nightmares after his death, to avoid nightmares we have to follow Allah’s orders.

Death for a true believer is a rest, it removes all the pain. We sleep when we get tired and want to get rid of Life’s issues, if we are seeing a lovely dream we wish that we never wake up, same thing death for the believer, it removes the troubles of this life and put him in an eternal peace where not only he see the dreams but really experience them.